Seven. Such a simple number and often forgotten. It’s not an even number. It’s not easily multiplied. 2s are clean and easy; 5s are easy. 10s are really easy once you can count. But, 7s! Not so much. In fact, I recall being required to memorize multiplication tables in fourth grade. Before we could go out to recess, a good way into the school year, we had to prove we had all the multiplication tables memorized. It was the 7s and 9s that really got me. I had to force myself, through using rhythm and repetition, to learn them cold. It is a prime number, but for me, that means it’s even less user-friendly and, therefore, less memorable. Biblically, it symbolizes completeness – but not for me.
Well, last spring seven years came and went with only one person, an associate from several years and locations back, who mentioned the anniversary to me. Understandably, it was a time of turmoil for my family due to disappointments, illness, death, and moves. That was perfectly fine but certainly a change from earlier years.
March 19, the day a woman, holding her cell phone and talking, hit my car rather than focusing on her driving. It changed my life and that of my family.
At first, I thought I would die soon based on that accident and the spinal cord damage it had caused. Nothing below my center-back now works. Anything that is normally controlled or done by those nerves, muscles, tendons, and even bones, can only be done by what I call work-arounds. Staff, both in the intensive care and next in the rehab hospitals, were wonderful! They first kept me alive and then taught me the work-arounds and coping mechanisms. Even those work-arounds don’t sometimes work. Those and upcropping “health issues” cause angst, concern, and loss of patience. I am fully prepared to die. In fact, there was a time I prayed for that. Assuredly, it would be more glorious and less challenging than life here. I’ve grown past praying for that, after all what would my granddaughter do without me?! But I am more than prepared for it.
A pattern I’ve noticed over my lifetime is that I tend to get involved and take on responsibility repeatedly until I am overcommitted. That begins to take its toll so I finally begin to scale back as those commitments allow. Over the last couple years, that has happened again. I guess it’s a good sign. However, there are three large, important writing projects I have not been able to even touch for more than a year. I have responsibilities and a calling to finish or address those. Those three don’t even count this blog that I’ve committed to write for and about those with Spinal Cord Injuries (SCI). This doesn’t excuse but does explain the lack of entries on my FastHugs blog.
My word for the year is ponder. As I look back over seven plus years, I realize that with time it’s as if the sharp images of the past have begun to blur and soften around the edges enabling other aspects of life to come into clearer focus. I am grateful for this evidence of the same with those I love as well. Maybe this last year and more will allow me to ponder life’s experiences and better prepare me for writing. Time has helped me conclude that I will not die of this SCI but will die with it. Thanks to all those of you who still hold us in prayers.
Watch for your blessings.
Trish
Jan 24, 2022 @ 16:09:19
Your strength, courage, faith, words are truly an inspiration.🌅
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FastHugs
Jan 24, 2022 @ 16:15:28
So encouraging. Thank you. Stay well.
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EKLM
Jan 24, 2022 @ 17:31:58
Thank you for continuing to inspire us with your strength and, just as much, with your vulnerabilities. Your work continues and your s more important than you know. Keep it manageable
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Laura Albus
Jan 24, 2022 @ 20:11:37
Thank you for writing this blog. Keep reminding yourself of your many accomplishments, not only your ability to adapt since the accident, but your ability to write. It is a unique and special gift. Thank you for using it for our benefit.
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FastHugs
Jan 25, 2022 @ 13:09:35
Thank you, Laura. I was so pleasantly surprised to see your name, and it means more than you can imagine. The best to your whole family.
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Flora
Jan 24, 2022 @ 20:38:05
Collene
You are truly an incredible woman! I think and pray for you always. When I walk past the district office, I always remember how kind you were to take time to talk to me after I was in the hospital. I still remember you reading The Paper Bag princess to my class! Blessings to you😀
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FastHugs
Jan 25, 2022 @ 13:04:12
Flora, you brought a smile to my face. I LOVE that book. Such a positive message to young girls. Thanks for the memories of a time I absolutely loved.
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FastHugs
Jan 25, 2022 @ 13:05:50
Flora, you brought me to an immediate smile. That is such an inspiring message to young girls. Thanks for the memories of a time and place I absolutely loved.
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FastHugs
Jan 25, 2022 @ 13:08:06
Flora, you brought an instant smile to my face. That book is such an inspiring message for young girls (and boys). Thanks for the memories of a place and time I absolutely loved.
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Lindsey Panassow
Jan 25, 2022 @ 08:33:46
I loved reading what you write! Sharing your experiences really opens my eyes to other situations that people could be going through. It also gives me inspiration and motivation to help others, find positivity, and not let obstacles knock me down…instead find new creative ways to get passed them! You are such a smart, talented, kind hearted person. I hope 2022 is a great year for you and your family! 💙. Thanks for taking the time to write!
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FastHugs
Jan 25, 2022 @ 13:02:26
Lindsey, you are already a person who gives so much and helps others. To inspire more of that in you feels remarkable. All the best to your whole family.
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Lindsey Panassow
Jan 26, 2022 @ 04:32:13
Aww thank you!! 💙. You’re so kind. 🙂
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Gloria Gonzalez
Jan 25, 2022 @ 10:49:37
Colleen your words, strength and willingness to open and share the depth of your feelings and experiences is a gift to each of us. May you and your family be forever blessed. Sincerely, Gloria G.
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FastHugs
Jan 25, 2022 @ 13:00:41
Gloria, I hope your family is feeling all ‘mended.’ Thanks for your kind words.
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Hal Barrett
Jan 25, 2022 @ 11:36:31
Thank you, Collene for this remarkable piece of writing. You are an amazing writer who captures feelings, whether positive or negative, in such a way that inspires those who read your work. You are simply amazing. I know I am inspired and blessed by your thoughts and feelings. Thank you, again!!!
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FastHugs
Jan 25, 2022 @ 12:59:54
Hal, many thanks. Stay well.
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Marty H
Jan 25, 2022 @ 16:52:10
It seems like only yesterday that you and I and Cindy Burkhart were giving our presentation on guiding principles . Thank you fir your tenacity, positivity, and inspiring entries.
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FastHugs
Jan 25, 2022 @ 17:40:25
Marty, I was thinking of that not long ago. That was information and guidance that could help districts make the best, wisest decisions even in rough economic times. Too many districts don’t have (or define) guiding principles. Take care.
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